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Just so you guys know... [08 Aug 2008|10:25am]
I really have a hard time with words sometimes. Always worrying about what I say, taking care not to let it come across the wrong way. Trying to find the best way to say what I want to say. That is why I tend to be kinda quiet, and you won't here me say alot other than what needs to be said or what is asked of me. I know I take awhile to respond too...thinking of a response...heck, even just writing this I'm taking forever. That's not to say I don't think about alot of stuff...I do. Maybe I think too much? Worry too much? But don't let anyone know. I don't want to put my thoughts on anyone else...so I'll keep everything inside. I've probably always been like this. I know that people don't tell me everything as well. There's always things we keep to ourselves, hm.  That's fine. I don't expect people to tell me everything...but when I do end up reading something that friends wrote...there's alot of stuff that I don't know about. And it makes me sad. People are free to talk to me if they won't, but it doesn't seem like people want to. I'll talk to you, I'll tell you stuff if you ask me and even if you don't. I want others to be able to do the same. I want to be able to help others. But it doesn't feel like I can do much. I can't do alot for others...can I even make others smile? Why is it that some people are able to make me smile and be happy so effortlessly, yet I can't do the same for others. Why do I even smile for.

That's not to say that I'm not generally happy most times. I am! Don't get me wrong. It's just becoming harder and harder.


There's alot of people that I miss.
They're so far away from me.
Always wishing that I could be there.
Some not so far
But I don't know if I can reach them anymore
Perhaps I'm too selfish
Thinking only of what I want.
I'm sorry.
I just don't want it to be too late.
There's so much I haven't done for you
I'll shout towards the sky that I miss you

How can I forget?
Your presence in my life
I'm not ready to let them go

Holding onto those memories
It's so hard for me to let go
To just not remember
To the point that it hurts


Today's 8.8.08
Lucky day
Hope you guys are all happy ^^
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spring break [11 Mar 2007|03:10am]
So, spring break is finally here. Yay! And I will be going to Connections tomorrow...so I'm very excited, it should be fun. 1 whole week =D. Time to get ready to sleep now, haha. Almost forgot it was daylight savings, and then I look at my clock and it jumped ahead an hour...and I was like...oh...darn.

Hope everyone else enjoys their spring break.
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Right now... [26 Feb 2007|09:55pm]
...I just got back from bio review session. It was pretty cold outside and I can't say it was the smartest thing to not wear a jacket. Haha, oh well. It seems alot of choices I've been making haven't been really smart. Anyways, doesn't seem like the practical will be too bad...I want to do well...but I'm almost at the point of not caring anymore. So I guess we'll see. Actually went to bed at a decent time yesterday too, after what, 2 days of being really restless and not being able to sleep. Alot of things have been on my mind lately. Things that I shouldn't even bother worrying about. But, I don't really care to tell people what they are, unless they ask and really want to know. Eh...the weather was really gloomy today...was kinda depressing really...

Ahhh...well, back to studying for me.
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TGIF [27 Oct 2006|01:53am]
Hurray, it's Friday! What a week it has been with its ups and downs.

Downs
-Physics test and calc midterm =/...enough said.
-Chem lab. It reallly sucked today [or technically yesterday] because our TA is evil. So was my buret...so here's the story: we were doing redox titrations, and we used permanganate to titrate...but first I couldn't take the readings because it's purple and dark. So I get a new buret, and go on with the lab...and in the middle of my first titration, the tip of the buret came right off...there goes the permanganate. I was horrified, and wasted a lot of time. I got permanganate on my hands, so it stained brown =(.

Ups
-Rho Pi Phi's halloween night...it was fun dressing up and hanging out.
-SG on Wednesday night...good times, good laughs. I don't think I laughed like that for awhile.
-Will be at Trilogy this weekend...I'm excited.

So next week is halloween, yay. Lots of things going on. Can't wait. Have a goood weekend.
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yay for fall break [09 Oct 2006|11:04pm]
Well it's Monday...so back to classes after fall break. And I had a really fun weekend too =D.

-Went home after our prep meeting, and was surprised by Sam, Grace, and others...thanks so much! The strawberry cake was very yuumy.
-Hung out with friends till early in the morning.
-Went to watch Employee of the Month...Dane Cook is awesome.
-Went to SF, and went to the mall. There was a pet store and they were selling baby bunnies!! They were soo adorable, I wanted the tiny grey one =(.
-Oh yeah, and I cut my hair.
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Life...is good [01 Oct 2006|08:48pm]
So we're beginning our 6th week at school...it's just been going by so quickly, and I've been really busy. I should continue to study chem but I thought, why not go on lj instead, haha.

-I get why ppl look at me funny when I tell them my major is bioengineering...cause it is pretty crazy...haha
-I love my roommate, hehe [we eat alot...lol]
-Chem is consuming me...but I guess other then that, classes are ok
-SG leading is going well too...and also time consuming [not a surprise]
-I'm looking forward to Trilogy
-Also looking forward to fall break next week...yay, 3 day weekend...on my b-day too =)
-Turning 20 this Friday...still can't believe it

So next time on lj...pictures!
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._. [23 Jul 2006|07:10pm]
Whoo...so I haven't updated lately...and here I am again...using a new layout! Yay. Credits are in the info, hehe. I like it, cause I like Bleach...and everyone knows my love for Hitsugaya taichou, heheh.

Well...one more week till summmer school's over now...score.

According to weather.com, it's 95 degrees out...and it was 102 earlier...bah, this weekend has been so hott...the heat makes me lazy and not want to do anything...except, eat ice cream, haha.


*sigh*
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random [12 Mar 2006|10:23pm]
[ mood | meh ]

So I was browsing through websites looking at pictures of these knives out of randomness...and I came across this really nice looking one:



Dragons! And of course, that makes me think of the knife that Kimmy gave me awhile ago as a grad. gift [psst, I still think a PSP would have been a better gift =P]. Haha...a pretty pretty stainless knife <3. The design on it is really nice...eagles. I figured I'd post a pic of it:



Mmm...heh...stainless..

*goes back to her bio lab report and listening to Utada Hikaru*...


I want to be with you right now, baby, and that is all I want yeah
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uh...yeah [09 Mar 2006|11:00pm]
So, our spring break is next week. I'm so excited! A whole week without school. About freakin time too. I'm just tired of school now...this week has been a pretty crazy week...but what week isn't eh. Had 2 midterms this week in bio and calc. I dunno...it's not that I have a problem with my classes...but now I'm thinking and sort of doubting myself whether I really want to stick with bioengineering. I mean I like it...but that doesn't mean I'm necessarily good at it. Meh...I dunno. Calc is cancelled tomorrow...yipee. Get to nap between mentor and bio. Lets see...ooh, signed up for housing for next year today too. I got into Jessie B., the dorm I was really hoping to stay at...and I'm going to be roommates with Angie =). I'm pretty excited to stay at Jessie next year...cause that's where all the cool kids are going to be at! Hehehe. Whatever. I just want this year to be over with. I am still going to be taking summer school though, pretty sure. Either to get ahead with calc or bio again. But yeah...I don't have anything else to say. Haha...I'm heading back to Milpitas tomorrow, wheee.
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It's been ages...and then some [01 Mar 2006|01:01pm]
So, I'm on lj right now [during comp. sci. class ^^;], and my last entry was...last year XD. Wow. I haven't updated in forever. Probably nobody reads this now, haha. I still use diaryland though [although haven't updated that in awhile either]. So many things have happened since the last time I updated, it'd be hard to catch you guys up. Let's just say college life is crazy. Fun, but crazy in terms of the work and stuff we have to do. Had some pretty fun weekends though. Some RO friends from Modesto/Oakdale came to visit Milpitas on Feb. 4th. What an awesome day that was...took lots of crazy pictures. Hung out at Golfland most of the day...lol. Then I went to Davis the next weekend for DOC [this conference] with PCF. That was fun...got to hang out with lots of cool people, and our host family was nice. The next weekend was President's weekend, so we had a 3 day weekend, score. So some friends and I went to S.F to visit another friend...we watched Skeleton Key, and Date Movie. Date Movie was a really hilarious movie...the kind of...good funny, but kinda horrible at the same time, haha. And when I was home last weekend, got to spend some time with some of my good friends. Saw Robert alot before going back, heh ^^.

Don't really know what to say now...so I guess this is going to have to do for an update! Until I actually have some worthwhile stuff to update about..
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just random stuff, and what have you [22 Jul 2005|11:49pm]
Hi everyone, sorry for that little..uninteded hiatus there ^^;. Hope everyone's doing absolutely fantasic! Summer's been...pretty much a bore. Haven't done much at all, but haven't had the motivation to do anything either...letting my brain turn to mush essentially. Ugh, I hate it but I can't seem to bring myself to really do much of anything =/. Well, except for hanging out with some ppl ^^. Otherwise...been playing RO alot lately...*pats Lord Knight*. Oh yeah, and I'm married in game, and adopted a daughter! =o..they're both such dears. Help me out so much cause I suck D:. Our wedding was lovely too, we got personally married by a GM, in Lutie...it was snowing ^_^. Well, also been watching dramas too, mostly taiwanese and korean dramas. Finished watching My Date with a Vampire III too...the ending kind of sucked though >:0. Things get really messed up in the end. But the guy's not bad looking, heheh. I'll post a pic, just cause I like it o_o:

Eric Wan


I didn't watch the first one, but I watched My Date with a Vampire II, and I thought that was abit better. In this one there's alot of...history and things about the characters pasts. Also watched another taiwanese drama, Hero. Wow, at first I didn't really like it, cause it made no sense, but then it started to have alot of action and plot twists, so I got really into it. There's lots of fighting action too..magic, kung fu, and what not. The end is kind of sad. Not to mention, again, hott people, and beautiful theme song. I so want to get this series on dvd something.

Hero:


Watching Lovers in Paris too. It's so adorable it makes me sick..no, j/k. It still has it's cute moments though, yet things that happen can be strange sometimes. Ah, and Harry Potter: HBP has been out for a few days now, I bet alot of people are reading and talking about it. I'm not a really crazy HP fan, but I enjoy it. Er, ooh, and the new chapters of Bleach of late have been like whoa! Haha. Haven't had a chance to read the scanlations yet, but I saw some of the raws and was like zomg. Haha, anyways, I also updated bleach_storage's memories from the week I was supposed to do...so sorry I got behind! I think I was supposed to do more too, eek D=. After hyourinmaru finishes this week, I'll do next week ^^;. Oh, and keep a look out for some more meme stuff! But not right now, gomen. That's it for now, I'll update later.
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ooh, memes [03 Jul 2005|02:00pm]
Tagged by Kaz ^^ :

Post 10 statements: 2 that start with "I am", 2 with "I have", 2 with "I believe", 2 with "I can", and 2 with "I want". Tag 5 friends to pass it along.

I am the oldest child.
I am usually willing to help others if I can.
I have gone to Hong Kong every 2 years up until 2000.
I have never been to Japan T_T.
I believe in following your heart.
I believe things usually work out for the better.
I can speak cantonese and another dialect.
I can risk all that I have for something I believe in.
I want to be successful and rich [but, who doesn't XD]
I want to travel more.

Tagging...anyone who wants to do it ._.


I haven't been able to go on my comp. that much this weekend, until today, so I haven't been able to check my friends pages all that much, so sry ^^'. Er, I'll try to update more! Haha. And when I finish other memes, then I'll edit this post and put them on here too. Now, back to RO for me, lolz.
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new layout and random stuff [27 Jun 2005|02:02am]
Ok, I finally changed my layout. Yesh, it's Hitsugaya-kun from Bleach, my favorite captain! XD. It's not the best, so this will have to do for now. Got some codes from _papersnow, so of course she shall be credited. If there are any problems that you see, then please let me know. Oh yeah, I also updated my userinfo...I know that it's not very...exciting and vibrant either [it's in the same style as the layout]. But I don't know how to make graphics look good without making them look...deformed o_o. I need to learn how to use photoshop more T_T. I got the idea from shadowvitani, so I hope you don't mind ^^'.

So anyways, onto...random things:
-I don't think I'm sleeping properly..ehh.
-Spent almost 3 hours at the dentist on..Saturday, and they gave me so much novocaine, it's not even funny...at least, 4 or 5 shots. My mouth was numb like whoa 0_0. Oh, and when I got my wisdom teeth pulled out last year, they gave me laughing gas. >.>
-After the dentist, wanted to get my nails taken off from prom, but the lady just redid it [don't know much about manicures and such though, so yeah].
-Ah, AnimeExpo this weekend...hope everyone who goes has fun ^^. I wish I could go, but, short on cash..drats.
-Probably gonna do more things this week [go to movies and hang out]
-It's summer, but I feel like my brain is turning into a big pile of...mush XD...ack, probably going to take a break from..internet soon to catch up on studies [I'll be in big trouble if I screw around and don't know my material starting fall..]

And I have a headache now, so I'm off.
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bohaha, look who it is [24 Jun 2005|02:32am]
I guess I've been pretty bad at updating ^^', gomen. I just don't feel like doing anything nowadays. Feel so lazy, I just wanna sleep all day >.>. I better not be like this once school starts again, otherwise that'll be bad. Speaking of school, it's been like, a week since school has ended. Graduation has gone and passed. For the pics, go [here] [though at this point, I haven't uploaded all of it yet]. So yeah..congrats, class of '05. We made it. A lot had been going on during the last week of school up till now. And on Tuesday and Wednesday, I was at UoP for orientation. And you get to hear me rant about it! Haha, well not really...

It"s behind a cut..so don"t read if you don"t want toCollapse )

Ooh, yeah, and I signed up for the [Facebook], so, add me! [seems like you need to have an account already ^^;]

*goes off to read more entries and make comments*

EDIT: Some memes behind the cut to make this less..boring? XD

most of them are from Kaz-samaCollapse )
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[14 Jun 2005|08:43pm]
Yes, so first day of finals are over! Only 2 more days left. Then on Saturday is graduation. We had practice today...it was hott and sweaty. Went to In and Out afterwards. Oh, saw Jonathan today...he recognized me, and I was like 0_o. The same thing happened with Marc yesterday [I think it was yesterday, the days just pass by and mesh together after awhile]. Class of 03...haven't seen them in so long...but I got to see them, and they remembered me! Hehe =). So bbq/picnic tomorrow...then grad. practice on Friday again. Going to UoP's orientation next Tues. and Weds. Zomg, placement tests =(. Then after that...well, I'm not really sure. I'll be hanging around for the summer though, probably. After that, I shall change my userinfo and layout...and be around on lj more! Haha.

Oh man, I just read the spoiler that Oceanizer provided on SS, and I can't wait to read the new chapter! I wonder who the new person is...o_o.

Btw Kim...I thought of a perfect grad. gift...*cough* a PSP so that I can get the Bleach game *cough*

♥♥
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I've been tagged ^^ [09 Jun 2005|11:17pm]
I'm doing this for the great Kaz-senpai =).

Things you enjoy, even when no one around you wants to go out and play. When you are mindless bored and need a way to suck away time. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level? Make a list, post it and then tag 5 friends and ask them to post it to theirs.

1. listen to music [fave songs on repeat]
2. watch music vids [again, on repeat]
3. watch anime/read manga [and rewatching/rereading!]
4. sleep [what I do best]
5. download things
6. daydream
7. play video and online games
8. chat with ppl
9. browse around the internet
10. looking back at old things I've gotten [yes, I keep things ppl give me-notes, cards, gifts]
11. procrastinating on what I'm really supposed to be doing
12. ..and more sleep [cause you know I don't get enough of it because of #11]

And I tag...um...electra_torch, insanitys_place, naoekun, sidh, and t0rm3nt...only if you want to of course [or just anyone who wants to do this].

*peace* o_ov [I love this face now, thanks to fuu!]
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yes, I'm still alive [06 Jun 2005|11:13pm]
Hm, seems like I haven't updated lately o_o. I've still been around though, making comments, lurking about here and there. You know how it is, ninja/assassin skills to the max! Haha. So, what has been going on that is worthy to talk about. Oh, Fanime! Lolz, I know it's kinda late and it's long over with...so I'll just give you the...memorable aspects:

-browsing around artist row and seeing some really neat art
-fangirling at all the awesome Bleach cosplay [ahhh, Aizen and Gin! XD]
-taking other great cosplay pics
-busting a hole in my wallet at the dealer's room -_- [ah, so overpriced there]
-singing karaoke with Hana [Life is Like a Boat]
-watching the guys [Eli, Justin, and Peter] making a fool of themselves on karaoke...and everyone loving it =p
-probably some other stuff I failed to mention

For fanime pics, go [here].

So, the last 2 weeks of school are upon us...and for us seniors, the last 2 weeks of high school...ever. No more of that repetitive boring-ness, the crappiness, the good times...no more seeing the people you love to see everyday, or seeing the people you hate everyday. But more of that next time...have to finish a bunch of projects...*dies*.
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senior ball! [17 May 2005|12:20am]
Seeing as how people were talking about senior ball today, I figured I'd update about it too. Or at least upload pics. Senior ball on Saturday was alot of fun. Went with Oanh to the salon in the morning to get our hair done...and it was funny, cause I guess the lady doing her hair thought we were sisters. Lolz =). Then we went back to her place, went to Eastridge, came back and then I went to pick up the flowers. I was asking the lady how to pin a boutonniere correctly, and she was like, just stab it through his heart. Hahah T_T. So got ready [was already running late as it was, so was kinda rushing]...then Dan comes and picks me up. We go get our pics taken, then go eat. We were walking on Santana Row, and everyone was staring at us, and some people were saying how cute we were -_-. Anyways, we eat and then go back to the mansion. Everyone looked so lovely ^^. So, danced most of the night, and ended up enjoying it for the most part. Took group pic too. Yeah, hope that turns out well. Mostly danced, didn't do much else. After the dance, Dan drove me back home. Yep, now, time for some pics. Go here to see them.
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[06 May 2005|01:26am]
Ok, time for an overdue update. Hm, haven't been at school all too much these past 2 weeks. Testing was last Wednesday and Thursday, then Friday was senior picnic. It was fun; some of the highlights:

-watching people climb up the rope to get to the slide [haha, it's still funny thinking about what Brandon told me about Steven]
-watching people do the bungee cord thing
-foosball!
-er, somewhat exploring
-sitting at the poolside
-sleeping on the bus ride back [thanks Judy for lending me her shoulder to sleep on, lolz]

Then on Saturday was the silent auction dinner, which was also pretty fun. Highlights from that:

-being at the Doubletree Hotel itself...it's a pretty nice place, and brings back lots of memories
-walking around and looking at all the stuff on auction...and not being too impressed at first, but then later finding some cool stuff after looking more carefully...ack, I wanted that computer set with photoshop elements and adaptor >_< [haha, I remember how excited we got at the prospect of bidding and actually winning something..if only we were rich]
-seeing the cars being auctioned...guhh, they had a Camry!
-being one of the speakers
-drawing the winner for the raffle
-seeing familiar faces to talk to...and Martin being his usual self:

Martin: I wake up and scramble eggs on myself.

Hahah, yeah, just too hott in your tux huh. Like, burning, haha.

Oh, and Monday, had a trip to the Fed. Reserve Bank in S.F. We took the bus to the Bart station...then took Bart to S.F. Yeah, it was amusing on the way over there. Some people were missng, so they called to ask directions so they could get to Bart...and arriving 3 minutes before it came. The Fed. Reserve Bank was cool to see...so much money in one place. After that we went to Pier 39...ate, walked around, took pics, had a good time. Went to the arcade and found 19 game tickets lying around...so we cashed them in, lolz. Afte that we started heading back. Something pretty funny happened while waiting at the Bart station. Shell knows, hahah. Then on the bus ride back, there are 3 girls that come in, and Shell said that one of them looked like Joe's 'stalker', and I thought she meant the 3rd girl...while Brandon thought it was the 1st one...then Shell said a little of both. They probably knew we were talking about them too. I thought that this one asian girl was pretty hott...lolz. Brandon says I'm just like Shell and we check out people. When we got back, we went to Tapioca Express. Yep, then today was AP english test. I thought it was actually alright...much easier then I expected. The practice stuff we got in class seemed harder then the actual test. I'm just glad it's over with now. 2 more to go. Guh. Fun. Anyways, I'll post pics from the auction dinner and S.F later.
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[27 Apr 2005|12:56pm]
So spring break has come and gone. Sucks coming back to school. Now it's Star testing, so us M&M's [mighty mighty seniors, haha] don't have to go to school today and tomorrow. And the next few weeks will be interesting.

-AP english review tomorrow
-senior pictures and senior picnic on Friday
-field trip to the Fed. Reserve bank on Monday...yes, San Francisco
-AP english test Thursday
-AP bio test on the 9th
-Santa Cruz trip on the 10th
-AP gov on the 11th
-senior ball on the 14th ^_^
-senior awards night on the 19th
-and Malibu with the academy ppl...26th

Yep, lots of fun. Anyways, I would update more, but I'm at the library at the moment, cause Hau dropped me off awhile ago. Hm, hadn't talked to him for awhile...he's cool to talk to, and dare I say it, even nice , haha. [stop making fun of me though...loser!]

Ok, have a good day.
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